Aggravated 2019-01-10


“My Passion Burns Deep Within Me, as it radiates outward. I have hope that the cold dark world behind me will see my burning passion and not only support but encourage that passion to grow and spread outwards so all may enjoy it.”
Thursday January 10th 2019, I woke up around 08:45 to the sound of the shop door rolling up. After a tiresome and nightmare filled night, I had just begun to get a decent and peaceful rest. Aggravated and in mind I was reminded that the trash had yet to be taken out. I jumped out of bed. I scrambled to get my coffee started, wash out my beard and brush my hair. Got hastily dressed and pulled on my old heavy black boots. I took out the trash, then came in to have my first up. As I was skimming my morning e-mails I felt so very aggravated. Another night of distressful rest, and not a single sale, inquiry as to commissioning me or even a $10 donation to help cover my expansive debt or to put towards building my vision. Not a way to replace my computer in which along with my camera. Is my only true path to building a sustainable life. I captured my aggravation. Then as I was processing that photograph the best I could I decided to capture myself as I was processing myself. By the time I had both of them processed. My computer froze 3 times and rebooted its self once. Displeased with taking 35 mins to process 2 simple photographs. I put on my jacket packed my pipe. And grabbed the four wheeler, I had chores to do, and well feeling pissed at the world I thought being physically active may burn off some aggression. I had two trailers I had to move, some lumber to re-stock. Move firewood to the main house and take out their trash. By the time I was done I was ready for a mid morning break. Again I captured the moment. As I write this I am still aggravated. But more so, I am hurt. I am hurt that no one has faith in me as an artist, as a photographer or even as a man. To help, support or even encourage my creative passion. To enable me to create the path that will allow me the freedom to get off of disability and eventually to help others. Any way’s I am sure there is a chance I will photograph myself yet again today. If I do, I will add them to this post. But here is what I have so far. Have a happy day and stay creative.


I could really use your Help Today, I am $250 short on bills and my computer I create with is failing badly. Will you please help me out today? Just $10 can be a huge help, Please now I need to raise $3500 ASAP Thank You So Much.


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